Qiao Jingjing’s mind went blank for a moment…
After a long time, she answered, “No,” and moved her legs to let him in.
Qiao Jingjing vaguely felt that he seemed to smile. He went in and sat down beside her, and his body heat and hot breath were felt by all her senses.
After the movie had played for several minutes, Qiao Jingjing recovered. She couldn’t help but be a little annoyed. Did he just tease her? But she didn’t do anything to get him back? It was enough to lose face for the entire entertainment industry.
She glanced suspiciously at Yu Tu. He was staring attentively at the screen, and his profile looked focused and serious…
Qiao Jingjing withdrew her eyes and began to watch the movie. After only a few minutes, however, she felt like something was wrong. The animation was a story about how the protagonist firmly pursued his dream under the obstruction of his family?
She thought back to the lonely look on his face that day when he said he was going to give up the sea of stars…
Will this put Yu Tu in a bad mood?
The move was fun. It wasn’t boring at all during the ninety minutes, and the main character certainly ended up sticking to his dream and getting the support of his family. As the music played during the ending credits, the audience filed out contentedly.
Qiao Jingjing and Yu Tu waited until everyone was gone before they got up.
“I’ll take you back.”
Qiao Jingjing nodded.
On the way back, she was a little silent. She secretly looked at Yu Tu. In the dark, his appearance was faint. As she stared, he raised his eyebrows suspiciously.
“Uh, I didn’t know the storyline beforehand.”
“It was good.” Yu Tu said, “The movie was about a lucky dreamer.”
Qiao Jingjing couldn’t help herself, “Last time you said you were going to give up, why?”
She had remembered that he said his parents objected during the college entrance examination, “Or is it because of your family? But doesn’t your uncle also work in aerospace? Why did your parents object?”
Yu Tu was taken aback.
Qiao Jingjing suddenly reacted. She knew too much! She looked up quickly at the sky.
However, Yu Tu didn’t change the topic. He looked at her and there was a little smile in his eyes.
Qiao Jingjing had to come back from the sky, “That…Peipei…”
Yu Tu nodded and said, “I know. She knows all the gossip for the whole class.”
Qiao Jingjing quickly changed the topic, “Don’t your parents agree?”
“They agreed when I took the postgraduate entrance examination.”
The faint smile from before had completely faded and Yu Tu didn’t say anything for a long time, “My parents came to Shanghai a while ago, but they didn’t tell me. I only found out after my aunt called me and asked how my mother was doing, and whether it was benign. I didn’t know they came to see a doctor.
“When I went to see them, they were staying in a small hotel that only cost a few dozen yuan a night, and they were eating biscuits and instant noodles.”
Qiao Jingjing had guessed many reasons, but she didn’t expect that the reason would be so common, ordinary, and unsolvable. She regretted asking the question.
“Is your mother alright?”
“She’s okay. It was a false alarm.” Yu Tu lowered his eyes, “But I can’t help thinking, what if there is something? Do I have the ability to give her the best medical treatment?” He asked and answered self-deprecatingly, “I don’t. I could have the ability, but I don’t.”
For a moment, Qiao Jingjing almost wanted to say, I can help you. But she knew that this can never be said. After a while, she asked, “So what are you going to do next?”
That said, his undergraduate major had been abandoned for many years and everything needed to start from scratch. He smiled and, with a somewhat gloomy voice said, “I have been conceited and clever since I was a child. As a result, when I reached my thirties, I haven’t accomplished anything.”
Qiao Jingjing stopped and looked at him for a moment.
Yu Tu stood for a while and said, “Let’s go. It’s too late.”
The night was quiet.
Yu Tu was sitting on the bed and smoking, feeling a little empty. He thought that he had probably lost some composure today.
He didn’t know why he said so much to Qiao Jingjing, even exposing the deepest frustration in his heart. He hadn’t even mentioned anything about his parents in front of his teacher.
The phone screen next to his pillow lit up. He picked it up. Qiao Jingjing had sent a message.
Jingjing: I suddenly remembered a sentence that suits you very well.
Yu Tu: What?
Jingjing: After all, you are already the rabbit who has seen the most stars.
Yu Tu: Jade Rabbit’s Weibo?
Then she sent over a long voice message.
“I was stunned by what you said earlier. Why do you say that you have done nothing? Even if you are going to give up your career and start all over again, the things that you’ve done will still be there. Although I don’t know what you’ve done specifically, I think it must be valuable. So even if you don’t do this job in the future, you don’t have to deny the past. At least you have fought for your ideals, which is better than compromising without trying. At least, I don’t think it’s a mistake.”
Jingjing: Jiayou, Rabbit god!
Yu Tu put out the cigarette. After a moment, he pressed play on the long message and listened to it again. Qiao Jingjing’s voice was actually very good. He remembered that in high school, every time there was a literary activity, she always sang onstage.
– – You are already the rabbit that has seen the most stars.
Yes, no matter what he will do in the future, whether he has lived up to his expectations in the past decade, whether he persists or gives up, at least he should not think that it has been a mistake.
Yu Tu’s finger pressed on the reply box of WeChat and he didn’t not realize that his mood at that moment was so soft that when typing, the speed was extremely slow.
Yu Tu: Thank you.
Yu Tu: You should go to bed.
Yu Tu: We will start qualifying matches tomorrow.
Jingjing: Good night!
Yu smiled, put down his phone, got up and walked to the window.
The sky outside the window was completely dark, and there was no starlight. He remembered that it was also a dark night when he went to see his parents. He still remembered the suffocation in his heart when he opened the door of the hotel room.
There had been a time when everything had seemed to be within reach, so he didn’t care for any of it. He had thought he could solve everything. Growing up was probably just to help him see that he was not so omnipotent.
He thought that since he had chosen everything himself, he should not have regrets.